GALA Magazine #18/2013
GALA Magazine #18/2013
Bill and Tom Kaulitz are identical twins, which is hard to believe
sometimes. Instead of having two genetically identical people standing
in front of you, it seems more like there are two men standing in front
of you who couldn’t be more different from each other. An optical
illusion, because as soon as they open their mouths, you’re talking to
one and the same person. Even when they’re of the complete opposite
opinion…
Your job as jurors on “Deutschland Sucht den Superstar” will be coming to an end next month. What’s gonna happen after that?
Tom: We will be dedicating ourselves solely to our music career.
Our move to L.A. in 2010 and us taking a break had two reasons. One
being that it became seemingly impossible for us to lead a private life
in Germany. Secondly, we wanted to work on our new album in peace. We
hope that we’ll finish it this year. The songs for the album have
already been chosen, now we’re in the last phase of production.
Actress Gwyneth Paltrow says: “People always stay the same age they were, when they became famous.” Is this true?
Tom: She has a point there. I often think that I didn’t change
much. I still have the same kind of humour and I still crack the same
dumb jokes. In some way you do stay the same. Then again, we learned a
lot – from how to deal with staff to how the music business works.
A lot of teen stars take a downward spiral and later terrorize the
people around them with their high-handedness, e.g.: Justin Bieber.
Who’s “allowed” to tell them “No”?
Bill: I really wish there was no one doing that, but its a fact
that there are still people that are opposed to us. We’ve known most of
the people around us for seven, eight years and they don’t stop telling
us the unadorned truth just because we’re in the public eye. I often
think that our environment sees things too critically because Tom and I
always find ourselves in a position where we have to defend ourselves
and our actions.
Robbie Williams was discovered when he was fifteen, just like you.
He says: “Fame magnifies your sensitivites, it strengthens your
weaknesses and it reveals the eeriest sides of your character.”
Bill: It’s true. A career magnifies your strengths and
strenghtens your weaknesses. I’ve always been an extreme perfectionist,
but now I’ve actually reached the point where I panic if something
really doesn’t go the way I wanted it to go. This feeling of panicking
is often so intense that I can’t sleep at night. No one has to pressure
me, I’m already pressuring myself.
Tom: I’m such a stickler for little details that I always have to
know exactly what’s going happen the next day. If something happens
that was unscheduled it feels like we’re heading for disaster. I wish I
could say: “Okay, whatever. Let’s see what the next day brings for us.”,
but I just can’t. Add to that, that I sometimes ask myself if it’s
healthy that I’m talking to myself the whole day when Bill and I are
seperated. It stresses me out when I’m constantly talking to myself,
because I don’t know if I’m heading into a weird direction by doing it,
or not.
How did those years of downtime feel like?
Bill: The strange thing is, I can’t say if it’s harder to live
with the fame or without it. After two years of having some time off, I
really have the urge to start working again. But the moment I see the
first photographers standing there, I think: Shit, maybe I do need
another year off. On the one side I want to be left alone, but on the
other side I want to be successful with the band. But that’s just how
people are – they always want what they can’t have.
Does your life in the public eye lead to you still posing, even when you’re doing normal things like peeing?
Tom: It’s like that with Bill, but not with me.
Bill: I just can’t shake that habit. As soon as I see a camera, I
get paranoid and I immediately fall into a specific behavioral pattern.
Even when we take pictures at parties with our family, I tense up
because I just know that those pictures are gonna surface one day. A
light flashing means to me: Be careful, you’re working and you’re in the
public eye!
Who would you pay more for per hour: A mechanic or a psychotherapist?
Bill: A mechanic. I often thought that maybe seeing a
psychotherapist would be good for me, but I don’t really believe in
them. I’m not a person that runs around not knowing what kind of
problems I’m facing. I’m pretty good at knowing what’s wrong with me.
But I feel like, if I can’t solve my own problems how is a stranger
going to help me solving them.
Tom: Talking to a psychotherapist helps a lot of people. We, as
identical twins, don’t need that because we talk to each other the whole
day anyway. I’m Bill’s shrink and he’s mine. That’s why I always
immediately notice when he’s not here. Then I have to tell my thoughts
to myself.
Bill: No one can undestand that we have to share our thoughts
with each other the moment they come to our minds. We blurt out
everything that goes on in our heads in each others presence,
unfiltered. Normal people don’t even do that in front of their mothers
or their best friends.
Tom: When we communicate with each other it’s like a fart – we
let everything out. For people, who listen to us talking, it comes as a
shock. Since we know everything about each other, we’re also really
close. It has an almost supernatural feeling to it that we share almost
the same thoughts. Actually, we don’t even have to talk to each other.
We already know everything there is to know about the other.
Does it drive women crazy, knowing that they’ll always have the
feeling that they only come off second best in a relationship with you?
Tom: It definitely takes some time to get used to us, because we
come in a double pack. We’ll probably spend our whole life together and
we’ll also do pretty much everything together. It’s really hard for your
Partner to not get jealous about this kind of intimacy.
A lot of identical twins think that this symbiotic relationship is
more torture than fun, and go through various phases because they can’t
live with each other but they also can’t imagine a life without each
other. Do you think that this type of intimacy sometimes feels like it
terrorizes you?
Bill: No. We never had such thoughts about each other. I can’t even imagine being a way from Tom for a longer period of time.
Robbie Williams has been living in L.A. since 2002. He says: “It’s
almost impossible to fall in love in L.A., because the women there are
so neurotic. This gives them superpowers. Almost every single one of
those women is great at being neurotic.” Do you share his view?
Tom: There are those typical Ego-Freaks in L.A., whose
personalities are mostly fake. But I feel like this type of women has
become international. If you’re unlucky, you can find it in every city.
Let’s assume you see a women in a coffeeshop in L.A. that piques your interest. How do you introduce yourself to her?
Bill: It’s a typical L.A. thing that the people tell you a lot of
personal things about themselves. Everyone is supposedly doing
something interesting and is leading a great life. Tom and I attract
attention by almost never telling anyone, anything about ourselves. When
the people do ask us about what we’re doing I immediately downplay it.
In L.A. understatement is a downer. That’s why people will then continue
talking about their personal lives. And I’m really okay with this.
Tom: When you join a Gym in L.A., you have to disclose your job
on the form. We then look at each other and think about what would sound
realistic. When we write that we’re in college, the people notice that
this can’t be true and then proceed to ask us: “How can you drive a car
like that when you’re in college? Are you the kids of some millionair?”
And again, Robbie Williams – he says that there are two types of
groupies in Germany: “One type wants to take a picture while having sex,
to have some sort of proof to show to their friend. The others ask:
‘Robbie, are your feelings for me real?’ Did you have similar
experiences?”
Tom: I can confirm that groupies want to know if my feelings for
them are real. But that’s not just the case in Germany. I think it
depends on how you scored with her. Women who are tough to crack, you
make a lot of promises to. Those are the candidates who then ask if you
really have feelings for them. I didn’t really lie when I answere them,
because I think that’s harsh. I take the middle way – I never say that
it’s just for a night, but I also don’t make her feel like more is gonna
happen between us.
How do you react when a women wants to take a picture during sex with you, just as proof for her friends?
Tom: I would never participate in something like this. With us it
was always the case that the women were informed that they weren’t
allowed to take pictures. It was clear to them. When we first started,
the girls had to leave their jackets and bags with our security guys and
basically already enter our room half-naked.
How do you react when a women tells you that she’s pregnant tomorrow?
Tom: It can’t happen to me. I’m in a relationship, therefore I haven’t been picking up random women for quite some time now.
Bill: A lot of things changed. At the beginning of our career we
had to sign a lot of autographs. Today, the people don’t really want
that anymore. When people ask me if they’re allowed to take a picture,
and I look like shit, I tell them: “Don’t be mad, but no pictures today.
But I can sign something for you if you want.” then they answer with
“No, thanks.” Newcomers can forget about printing their autograph cards,
autographs are out.
Tom: When you want to take a picture the people get so excited
that they can’t turn on their cameras and they really start to shake.
When I see that I also get really nervous.
Bill: We both are so bad at handling those situations because we
fail at smalltalk. I admire when strangers meet each other and when
they’re able to just simply throw a few comments at each other and hold a
conversation. When I meet someone I don’t know, I feel very
uncomfortable in the situation. I never know what to say and the other
person – in most cases – also doesn’t. And then there’s this awkward
silence. It’s easier for me to smalltalk in English, because there are
those typical empty phrases you can use to start a conversation with
someone. In German everything is so fraught with meaning.
When was the last time that you told a person “I love you”?
Bill: When I was in school I often told my girlfriends I loved
them, without thinking twice – but I never meant it. Sometimes it did
happen that I had a crush on someone, but it was never anything serious.
I haven’t found anyone I can tell “Yes, I love you and I mean it with
all my heart.” yet. With family members it’s, of course, something
different.
Tom: He tells me every day that he loves me to death.
A lot of artists can live with their self-love. Are you really missing something in your life, Bill?
Bill: I do miss loving someone – but what does missing even mean?
It’s not like I’m looking for the love of my life every day, and that I
always think: Oh, poor me, I still haven’t found my one true love. The
thing is, people are just made for being with someone. I think that
there’s no one wo really means that he or she likes being single. I
think that’s a lie.
Tom: Some people pity you and say: “He’s been single for so long.
He has to be so depressed.” They forget that you’re not living this sad
life, that you don’t live on your own and work on your own.
Bill: Exactly. The relationship that comes first, will always be the one Tom and I have. Everything else comes after that anyway.
They say that Goethe had his first time when he was 39 years old!
Bill: Wow! Then I feel even better.
Translation by: Icey @ LoveTH-Music.com – PLS. CREDIT! (: